I know how cliche it may be to say you have a New Year’s resolution, but I have actual, realistic goals that I want to accomplish. I’ve been doing a lot of reflecting throughout the year and especially now with the new year. I’m going to give you guys some insight on what I think I should do for 2019 even if they may be goals I can accomplish in a short time.
I really need to work on budgeting and making sure I do not have mini shopping sprees every day. Okay, maybe not every day, but it is enough for me to question where all my money is going.
The first step will be to stop eating out all the time and cook again. I have way more space now that I’m on my own in my new place (blog post to come). I’m also going to try to set an actual budget for myself, but stick to it instead of having it there yet ignoring it.
I feel like if I have the right financial plan, I’ll be able to pay some things off and handle comfortably making me less overwhelmed. Being an independent adult is such a different experience than I could have ever imagined.
One word, barre, barre, and more barre! I love going to barre and hiking! I plan to continue to do those activities even more or the same amount in 2019. I need to stay healthy and keep my anxiety low.
I also want to get back into running. I’ve fallen off, but it makes me feel so good, and it’s fun. I’m going to find a beautiful park to run close to my new apartment complex and make it a point to run every morning or evening. The goal really is to run about 3 times a week while integrating barre and hiking.
I am really going to try to work on my relationships with others. I have kind of fallen off because I get so concerned about me and my health that I forget the people I love need attention and my presence at times too.
When I’m out with people, I’m going to make it a point to keep my phone away and maybe snap a pic or two then be present for the rest of the night. Now of course if something super exciting happens that I don’t want to miss, I’ll pull out my phone, but ultimately it’s staying off of social media and staying social with those around me.
Bipolar Disorder Won’t Win
Being officially diagnosed with Bipolar disorder was hard to come to terms with, but I’m happy I have an explanation. Now it is time to take it by the horns and handle business. I am going to figure out how to manage it, so it isn’t interfering as much with my relationships or my peace of mind.
I’m not going to let life stop and feel that I’m damaged goods because I have a mental health disorder. I’ve allowed it to make me shameful, but I have also seen the beauty in it too. So many people focus on the negatives of Bipolar Disorder which can really have an impact on people like me who manage it every day even when sometimes it feels like you’re not managing at all.
I want to break the stigma for myself and see how I am Paige, not Bipolar. I know there are things I need to personally work on to lessen my triggers, but I’m willing to take the steps and conquer this once and for all (really for the rest of my life). I am more than a conqueror and can manage this through the strength of Christ.
Goodbye 2018, Hello 2019!
I am hopeful and excited for what the new year has in store for me and everyone. It is incredible to see the change and how far we have all come since this time last year. The people who have come and gone out of my life; the experiences I’ve had and made the best and worst memories from; it is all just an enriching and captivating state of mind. Here’s to 2019!